Recommitting

From October to March, my running has suffered. I've been lackadaisical and apathetic. I haven't been able to get myself out of bed on those dark, chilly mornings for runs before work. There are a lot of factors that underlie this motivational deterioration. I've bitten off more than I can chew with respect to research and extracurricular involvement. I haven't had races on my schedule to keep me focused. I've been disappointed about not qualifying for Boston last year and about my unwillingness to attempt a 100-mile race.

But, I've started to turn the corner. Two weeks ago, I registered for the SD Rock 'n' Roll Marathon, and running has again become a cornerstone of my week. I've readjusted my daily schedule to rise early and run before work, and I've started steadily accruing miles. It's tough -- both psychologically and physically. One year ago, I was in the best shape of my life; I could run 20 miles on the beach in the morning, then finish a 12 mile tempo run in the afternoon. Not only was I more fit than I had ever been, every day I was getting fitter. There was such a thrill in that pursuit of daily excellence, that when I began to decrease mileage in April, I couldn't keep that drive alive, and I spiraled downward. Registering for another race has forced me to schedule, plan, and execute at a high level again, not only in terms of running, but also in other facets of my life. I'm eating healthier food, I'm more productive at work, and I'm more focused in pursuing other goals. I may not be in the best shape of my life come race day June 5th, but I'll surely feel better and better every week leading up to it. And with any luck, I'll be able to use that excitement to fuel another fantastic summer of running.